St3v3n1z3

2007-07-30T10:41:00.000+08:00

wuih...

finally,i can post sumthing on my blog again
i have never posted for so long...
maybe 2 months...

a lot of things happened past this few months...
these are the list...
1. transformers... damn nice 9/10
2. HP:OOTP sucks!!! 4/10
3. HP:DH cool... nice book,nice plot but poor ending...
4. ASEAN Dance is coming soon... Can't wait for it... Coz i'm dancing wif sumone
5. Prelim is also coming soon... Bloody hell. need to start to mug...

That's the list i remember...
hahahaha...
yesterday is hostel games
played floorball n badminton
floorball got 2nd badminton lose
but no probs
we are playing for fun not for prizes
like my DM always said
"it doesn't matter whether u win or lose,
it's how u play the game"

hahahaha

PS: i miss u

2007-05-30T16:17:00.000+08:00

some special, oka, sabrina

reff: special in my eyes
since you’re in my life
always on my mind
so special in my eyes

everyday and night
i feel i found home
and singing you this song
you never be alone
special in my eyes

i can’t wait til the sun comes down
cause a good girl is so hard to find
see i train to obey your order
just like a soldier, sir yes sir

i wanna be your number one
without you i’m half blank like minus one
i think about you all the time
before i go to sleep everynight

ur first thing in the morning
got you inside me since day one
bury me six feet deep underground
it’s crazy yeah you proudly would
pray for your love too
if you was in my shoes

when you down i got you chill
towards you i stay class til forever still
i’m drawn to be down with you
in my arms girl
you’d be safe inside

repeat reff

eventhough you play hard to get
i never expect you would like me back
it’s hard to believe we connect
day by day we seize down the gap
to the sky we fled

i still remember the first time we met
arbitary girl is like a fairy tale
it fast left me drain completely
and ever since then
i blend with my misery

but everything is different now
coming at you is the ring and the wedding gown
you gotta be around when i’m down
be a good friend, the most profound

cause i’m gonna do the same thing
without you i’m senseless
cause you’re my instinct
di celah kaki hujan
kita berdansa, bercumbu dalam hasrat

everything is gonna be alright
trust me cause i’m giving you my life
how do i get you to understand
i gotta have you more than just best friend

i gotta have you to be my last
i don’t want you to be my past
baby no doubt, in a matter of fact
i wanna be your future
ku seduh kasih sehalus sutera

i want you to be my last
and i don’t want you to be my past
baby no doubt, in a matter of fact
i wanna be your future
bernafas dalam ikatan suci

everything is gonna be alright
trust me cause i’m giving you my life
how do i get you to understand
all i want is you to be my man

~So Special~ by Oka n Sabrina

This song i dedicated to my darling...
I will be back 2 medan in 3 days...
I will miss u so badly darling...
We must wait till 3 weeks to meet each other again...
I will hug u so tightly when the time comes...
Promise me that u will wait me till i come back...
I love u

2007-05-09T17:27:00.000+08:00

Ummm...

The battle for Midyear has come...

Hahahaha...
But i won't talk bout it now...
I want to talk bout things that happened recently...

Um...
First...
I have asked Leonny to be my girlfriend...
And she says yes...
I dunno how to express my feelings...
Coz i'm so happy to hear that...

I really hope that we could be together forever...
Coz i dunno how to move on without you...
One thing for sure...
I will love you forever n beyond...

Um...
Member of Madesu from VH just had a small party...
Preparing for Midyear exam
With a Murtabak feast...
Hahahahaha....
It's so nice to have a chit-chat again together...
U all rox man...
Hahahahaha....

Um...
My midyear starts tomorrow....
Hopefully i can get a single digit this time...
Hopefully...

One last thing...
I just realized that my relation between Bohay and me...
is a bit loose...
Ummm....
Maybe i didn't spend to much time with him and Vincent...
Maybe i should try to fix it again....
Hopefully...
Hahahahaha....

Need to mug again...
Haizzz...

Darling... I love you

2007-04-23T14:45:00.000+08:00

Tonight it's very clear
As we're both lying here
There's so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I don't wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

You'll keep me standing tall
You'll help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you've been dreaming of
We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We're gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love

~Glory of love ~ by Peter Cetera

I'm so happy nowadays...
Because of you,my love...
I hope that we can be together forever...
Coz without you,half of my life seems to be taken away...
I love you...

2007-04-20T13:26:00.000+08:00

I am a vision, I am justice
Never thought that I could love
Living in shadows, faded existence
It was never good enough
Within the darkness, you are the light
That shines away
You’re trapped in violence, I can be the man
Who saves the day

I’m there for you
No matter what
I’m there for you
Never giving up
I’m there for you

For you

Someone has changed me, something saved me
Now this is who I am
Although I was blinded, my heart let me find that
Truth makes a better man
I didn’t notice when you were right in front of me
A mask of silence, we’ll put away so we can see

I’m there for you
No matter what
I’m there for you
Never giving up
I’m there for you
For you

For you

Within the darkness, you are the light
That shines away
In this blind justice, I can be the man
Who saves the day

I’m there for you
No matter what
I’m there for you
Never giving up

You know it’s true
You were there for me
And I’m there for you
For you
For you
For you

~For You~ by The Calling...

I'll always be there whenever you need me,darling.

2007-04-15T10:50:00.000+08:00

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t want to run away, I want to stay forever, thru Time and Time..
No promises

I don’t wanna run away, I don’t wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love

No promises

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.

~No promises~ by Shayne Ward

Again...
This song i dedicated to my little cute girl out there...
Can't wait to meet you...
Hahaha...

I've been thinking 'bout our relationship...
Sorry to keep you waiting...
I'm just not ready yet...
But i will promise you one thing...
That i will be ready for it in no time...
Wait for me,will you?

2007-04-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leaving my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

Chorus:
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be

Chorus

Bridge:
I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
What you did and where you are comin' from
I don't care, as long as you love me, baby.

Chorus

Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me
(Repeat to fade)

~ As Long As You Love Me~ by Backstreets Boys

This song i dedicated to a girl out there...
I love you...
No matter wad people think bout us...
The only thing that matter is that you love me as well...

As long as you love me, i will be happy...
My world seems to have twice as many stars in the sky...

Sorry for any of my weaknesses...
No matter wad happen...
I will love you forever n beyond...

PS: Miss you so much...

2007-04-12T13:12:00.000+08:00

Hari ini gw bolos...

Haizzz...
Sbenarnya ga pingin sich...
tapi gara2 ngoborol ama edo n acen ampe malem bgt...
Gw jadi capek berat...
Hehehehe...
Tapi gw juga butuh istirahat sich...

Banyak kejadian yg penting dalam minggu ini...
Hahahaha...
Biar yg penting kusimpan sendiri aja...
Hahahaha...

First thing...
I'm glad to be at her side now...
No more camoflauge between us...
Hahahaha...
It felt so nice when i grab ur hand...
I wish if i could do it NOW...
Hahahaha...

Second thing...
I won over her at pool...
Yey....
Hahahahaha...
Actually it was only a luck...
Hehehe...

Hm...
Why i tell everything bout her only??
Haizzz...
Dunno why...
Maybe she's all my mind...
Hahahaha...

PS: Gw sayang ama u...

2007-04-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu
aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu
karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu
oh karena hati tlah letih

aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh
aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu
tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati
oh bayangmu seakan-akan

reff: kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku
yg memanggil rinduku padamu
seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang
tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang
dan sepi, dan sepi

repeat reff [2x]

selalu ada, kau selalu ada
selalu ada, kau selalu ada

~Dea Lova~ by Once Dewa...

Salah satu dari sedikit lagu indo yg bikin gw tersentuh...
Maknanya dalem bgt...
Hahahaha...
Sepertinya memank menunjukkan diri gw sekarang ini...
Hahahahah...

2007-04-08T10:14:00.000+08:00

The maddest thing i have ever done...
I've done it two days ago...

Hahaha...

Kemarin asik bgt...
Jalan2 ama Andika,Michael,n juniors...
Hohohoho...
Uda lama kgk ngeliat mereka...
Hehehehe....

Ktemu mereka di cathay...
Abiz itu mereka mo makan di kopitiam plasing...
Di kopitiam,gw ama debbie ama fiona ga jelas...
Ngomong bahasa Hokkien ama 1 Malaysian SJI
Hokkien gw uda rada kacau...
Hiks...
Ga bisa menjaga bahasa sendiri...
Huhu...

Abiz itu gw,Mike,Noval and Tian ke e-max
Maen CS,Dota,Company of Heroes,maen game balapan yg gw kgk tau namanya...
Hehehe...
Maen CS sich, gw owning...
Game balapan itu juga...
Tapi yg strategy kyk CoS n Dota...
Gw masi cupu kyknya...
Hehehehe...

Abiz itu pulang...
Ngobrol ama bohay...
Ttg bermacam2 hal...
Hehehehe
Ampe jam 1
Abiz itu balek kamar...
Bobok...

Itulah yg terjadi pas kemarin...
Sama skali kgk capek...
Hehehehe...

2007-04-06T10:49:00.000+08:00

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Verse 1:

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

Chorus:

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul (Your beautiful soul, yeah...)

Verse 2:

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind, if you give me the chance
I'll never make you cry, c'mon let's try

Chorus:

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beatiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Bridge:

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby, do you think you could want me too?
I don't want to waste your time

Do you see things the way I do?
I just wanna know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

Chorus:

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Ohhhhhh, ohhhhhh
Beautiful soul, yeah yeah yeah yeah

Ohhhhhhhh, yeah

Your beautiful soul, yeah yeah yeah...Beautiful Soul

~Beautiful soul~ by Jesse McCartney

Akhir2 ini gw jadi maniak Jesse...
Ga tau kenapa...
Mungkin lagunya bermakna...
Hahahaha...

PS: I want you and your beautiful soul...

2007-04-06T10:36:00.000+08:00

I dun feel really well...

Omg...
Yesterday is like a hell for me...
Kena scolded by physics teacher "AGAIN"...
Ask me to stay back at school until 12.30

U are very kind...

Haizzz...

The afternoon is as bad as the morning...
Couldn't go to sport's day at vjc coz i'm not feeling well...
No permission...
which mean i will be called by my discipline master on monday...
Must think of a reason by then...

Fortunately,the night has been good...
Went to parkway to eat with tiara,laird,vincent,christian,kristanto,muchtar,selvie and katrin
Then went to play DDR...
I sucks at it really...
Dun want to try anymore...
Hahahaha....

But then, after came back from parkway...
I felt something wrong with my body...
I felt like sauna...
N i see things become two...
Hahahaha...
Must say thanks to leonny...
I've found the medicine...
Hahahhaha....

I felt a bit better now...
Hope I can recover soon...
Hahahaha

PS: I love how you can tell the pieces of me...

2007-04-04T22:45:00.000+08:00

I'm awake in the afternoon
I fell asleep in the living room
and it's one of those moments
when everything is so clear

before the truth goes back into hiding
I want to decide 'cause it's worth deciding
to work on finding something more than this fear

It takes so much out of me to pretend
tell me now, tell me how to make amends

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

I keep trying to understand
this thing and that thing, my fellow man
I guess I'll let you know
when i figure it out

but I don't mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it's fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don't you see I'm breaking down

Lately, something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life
is there really no escape?
no escape from time
of any kind

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

'cause lately something here don't feel right
this is just a half-life,
without you I am breaking down

wake me, let me see the daylight
save me from this half-life
let's you and I escape
escape from time

come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
come on lets fall in love
again

~Half Life~ by Oliver James

Hahaha... Ntah kenapa gw suka bgt ama lagu ini...
Menyentuh hati gw yg tenang...
Hahahaha....

PS: I need to solve the mystery of you

2007-04-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha....

Wad a slack day...
Guru e math gw ngasi kita waktu tidur gitu 2 period...
Trus pas les bio,bikin kallang wave and teriak2...
Seru!!!

Gw akhirnya percaya ama kata guru chem gw
" This year 4D is different from last year 3D "
Hahahaha....
U all rox,man....
Let's rock VS!!!

Hahahaha...
Uda lama gw merasakan asiknya skul...
Lama bgt...
Hahahaha...

Besok ada class photo taking!!!
Yey... Ngeslack lagi...
Huahahahaha....
Tapi ada 3 period physics lagi...
Haizzz...

Hope can survive 2moro...

Hahahaha...

Sepertinya makin lama makin banyak suggestion ke gw...
Ga tau mesti ngapain...
Hahahaha...
Ikutin kata hati aja ah...
Hahahaha....

PS: I find myself in the path...

2007-04-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.

You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.

[ these lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.

'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

2007-04-01T22:37:00.000+08:00

K...

Let's start the posting...

I dunno wad to say...
I dunno wad to hear...
I dunno wad to see...

But one thing i know...
You are the one that can bring out the best in me...
Like no one else can do....
That's why I need you by my side...
That's why i love you...

Hahaha...
No more camouflage between us already...
For i am sure that...
Hm... nvrmind...

Midyear is coming to 15MB
So guys n gals...
Start your engine...
Let's aim for RJC...
Go! Go!

Huahahaha...
I miss u all,madesus...

PS: My love don't stop...

2007-03-28T20:23:00.000+08:00

It's been a long week...

Many things has happened...

Lost to SJI 5-0...
I got 12 for my CA...
N i have promise myself never to be desperate anymore...

Now,i have learned how to control myself...
Learned how to be patient...

For you i will do anything,just to get through to you...

One day, i will muster all my confidence...
To show how much i feel about you

2007-03-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been asked when is your happiest day in your life?

I think for me now...
My happiest day will be the day when i die...

I hope it will be tomorrow...
Coz i can't bear this pain anymore...

I'm too tired...
I'm too exhausted...

Maybe...
I should just take a gun and shoot myself in the head...
Maybe...

The reason is you...
You are the reason why i feel so desperate...
Do u know why i drive myself crazy these days?
Do u know why i have become a random guy these days?
Do u know why i seldom talk to people these days?

Shall i keep waiting for you?
Or shall i just forget you and keep moving on?

I'm searching for the answer right now...
Searching for the impossible answer...

2007-03-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

Uda lama ga update blog...

Nothing important happened these days...
Except that the fact that VS has been ousted from National tournament...
I'm quite sad that time...
Makes me down till now...

Then she's kept bothering my mind...
Can't really takes my eyes off of her...

Mungkin gw terlalu pede...
mungkin gw terlalu egois...
mungkin gw terlalu naif...
Dan mungkin gw terlalu kiasu...

Hahaha...
Untuk pertama kalinya gw ketawa...
Memank benar kata bohay...
Setelah diceramahin...
Gw baru sadar...

I think the best way for me right now is let the time flow...

As many people had told me to cheer up, i will cheer up...

PS: Thanks to y'all that help me to overcome my desperateness... Thanks a lot...

2007-03-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice calls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I really know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, whats the use if you killed inside
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

~Because You Live~ by Jesse McCartney

PS: Because you live, my world changed upside down...
I can't think clearly...
I act like i am a crazy guy...
You really drive me crazy,girl
You will be the first and the last one that can do it...

2007-03-19T21:03:00.000+08:00

Sitting here counting the hours
Waiting for the sun to kiss the sea
Paralyzed by the fragrance of the flowers
They remind me of you and me

Chorus
There's one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
Seven days without you, Seven days without you.

Making plans just to stop the aching
Chasing thoughts from a million miles away
Hypnotized as another dawn is breaking
I rehearse the words I want to say

There's one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
Seven days without you, Seven days without you

Well I will find a way into your heart
So let me try and sleep before we know

There's one love in a lifetime
Our two hearts of a kind
These three reasons you'll be mine
For when five and six are through
Seven days without you, Seven days without you

~Seven Days Without You~ by: Teddy Geiger

PS: Seven days without you seems to be a year for me...

2007-03-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

It's Saturday...

My life seems to change...
I can laugh...
I can smile...
I can make a joke...

Maybe i should say thanks to those who has helped me to overcome my problem...
I would rather not mention their names...
For their privacy...
or rather my privacy...
Hahaha....

Soon,national tournament will come...
If i win, i will give the trophy to you...
Juz wait if i can give it to you or not...

I miss you...

2007-03-17T02:36:00.001+08:00

Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would

That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

~For You I Will~ by Teddy Geiger

For you i will wait no matter how long it will take...

2007-03-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

Verse 1
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

Verse 2
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

Chorus
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Verse 3
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

~Iris~ by Goo Goo Dolls

2007-03-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

I feel that i am a small guy...
Who walks in a big,big world...
With lots of challenges and disturbance...

I feel if i can overcome the challenges and disturbances...
I will be very happy...
The tougher the challenge, the more happiness i will get if i can overcome it...

So for you... I will wait patiently... Though it's hard... Coz it will become a challenge for me...
I will wait u no matter how long it will take...
A day,a month,a year,a decade,or even a millenium...
I will wait 4 u...

I make a decision...
I hope it will be a good one...

PS: I won't be desperate anymore...

2007-03-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

Mungkin takdir ini

terlanjur menuntut

diriku tak dapat pergi darimu

Walaupun seribu bintang tinggalkan ku

dan mentari tak bersinar

aku tak kan mampu untuk lepaskanmu

mencoba sejenak lupakan

segalanya yang tlah terjadi

CHORUS:
duhai cinta

tataplah aku disini tetap menatapmu

walau perih

terus kau sakiti hati tetap mengharapmu

mungkin benar bila aku tak berarti

dan dirimu terlalu berarti

walaupun pekatnya bulan gelapkan ku

dan pelangi tak berpijar

wajahmu terlalu indah tuk ku benci

dan ku terus mencintaimu

engkau terus melupakanku

duhai cinta

tataplah aku disini tetap menatapmu

walau perih

terus kau sakiti hati tetap mengharapmu

repeat chorus

~Kubenci kau dengan cintamu~ by Titto

2007-03-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

Another day has passed...

2 hari ini agak sedikit suram...
Kerjanya cuman mugging...

Tapi hari ini AGAK sedikit berbeda...

Diajak nonton Paris J'taime, tapi syg NC16. Terpaksa nonton music & lyrics. Filmnya bagus... Gw sedikit tersentuh ama si alex yg cemburu gara2 cenya masi admire co yg jerk n ngehajar co itu...

Hmm... Ternyata setiap jalan yg gw ambil selalu bercabang... Gw jadi bingung. Keep asking myself whether i should confess my feelings to her or not... Haizzz...

Apa yg bakal terjadi kalo dia nolak gw??? Gw takut gw bakal depresi as i was when i liked someone...

No matter wad, let's wait for the time to decide it...

PS: I'm still waiting for you no matter how long it will take...

2007-03-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

menghitung hari

detik demi detik

menunggu itu kan menjemukan

tapi kusabar

menanti jawabmu

jawab cintamu

jangan kau beri

harapan padaku

seperti ingin tapi tak ingin

yang aku minta

tulus hatimu

bukan pura-pura

jangan pergi dari cintaku

biar saja tetap denganku

biar semua tahu adanya

dirimu memang punyaku

jangan kau beri

harapan padaku

seperti ingin tapi tak ingin

yang aku minta

tulus hatimu

bukan pura-pura

jangan pergi dari cintaku

biar saja tetap denganku

biar semua tahu adanya

dirimu memang punyaku

belum pernah kujatuh cinta

sekeras ini

seperti padamu

jangan sebut aku lelaki

bila tak bisa dapatkan engkau...

jangan sebut aku lelaki...

~Menghitung Hari 2~ by unknown artist

2007-03-13T11:02:00.000+08:00

Wad a boring day...

Kemarin seharian di hostel... Suntuk bgt... Pingin blajar,tapi... Kepikiran dia trus... Alhasil gw nongkrong di dpn komputer 8 jam non-stop... Haizzz

Trus sorenya gw ke dokter... Soalnya bagian belakang telinga kiri gw bernanah... Dokternya terpaksa operasi nanah itu... Sakitnya minta ampun... Huhuhu...

Memank kemarin itu hari paling suram gw dalam sejarah hidup gw di sing sampai sekarang...

Hope 2dae will be a better day...

PS: I will keep waiting for u no matter wad...

2007-03-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

Another day has finished...

Tadi siang mugging bareng vi,lia,bohay n tiara... Abiz itu lia pulang... Katanya capek... Trus leonny dtg... Habis itu ke suntec ketemu kemal n hani... Habis itu kita smua pergi ke marina square main pool.... Habis itu pulang...

Kedengarannya sich fun abizz hari ini... Tapi dari tadi ada yg ngeganggu pikiran gw... Hm... Kyknya lagu "i drive myself crazy" cocok buat gw dech... Haizzz... Moga2 bsk pas gw bangun, ga ada yg bakal ngeganggu pikiran gw lagi. Hope so...

PS: I will wait for u forever no matter what...

2007-03-11T23:06:00.000+08:00

ooooh....

Lying in your arms

So close together

Didn't know just what I had

Now I toss and turn

Cause I'm without you

How I'm missing you so bad

Where was my head?

Where was my heart?

Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake

I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy

Thinking of you

Made a mistake

When I let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

(wanting you the way that I do)

I was such a fool

I couldn't see it

Just how good you were to me

(Just how good you were to me)

You confessed your love

( You confessed your love)

Undying devotion

I confessed my need to be free

And now I'm left

With all this pain

I've only got myself to blame



I lie awake

I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy

Thinking of you

Made a mistake

When I let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

(wanting you the way that I do)

Why didn't I know it

(How much I loved you baby)

Why couldn't show it

(If I had only told you)

When I had the chance

Oh I had the chance



oohhhhhh....la la la la la la

I drive myself crazy'

ahhh..oh so crazy

lalalalala...oh oh oh oh

I lie awake

I drive myself crazy

Drive myself crazy

Thinking of you

Made a mistake (made a mistake)

Let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do



I lie awake

I drive myself crazy

(I drive myself crazy, crazy, crazy...yeah)

Drive myself crazy

Made a mistake

Let you go baby

I drive myself crazy

Wanting you the way that I do

I drive myself crazy

wanting you the way that I do

~ I Drive Myself Crazy ~ by N Sync

2007-03-11T01:24:00.000+08:00

Wad a fun day!!!

Gila, hari ini hepi bgt... Siang nonton letters of iwojima ama leonny. Ok sich. Tapi sayang terlalu sadis buat ditonton ama ce. Nvrmind,yg penting morale of the storynya bagus. Huahaha

Habis nonton, kita cabut ke nlb buat mugging... Ga kuat mugging sich,tapi gw merasa berdosa liat si leleng mugging. Terpaksa dech gw mugging juga. Huahaha.

Pas mugging, leonny diajak ama vi main pool. Hahahas, leonny lagi pingin maen pool sich jadi mugging kita terpaksa berhenti. Tapi, bagi gw,itu berkah. Gw ga kuat lagi sebenarnya. Thx Vi, i owe u one...

Tapi sewaktu dari nlb ke lucky plaza,kita ber2 tersesat... Uda salah bus stop trus naek bus 16 tapi ga tau turun di mana. Terpaksa dech kita naek taxi. Huahaha. Kita memank lagi blur2an hari ini,le. Huahahaha...

Ga tau gimana caranya, kita nyampe. Trus ketemu si tiara,vi,kemal n rahardi. Huahahha...
Makan tori'q n old chang kee abiz itu ke lucky maen pool,tapi overcrowded. Akhirnya kita ke marina square... Jumpa henkie di sono...

Trus kita maen pool... Ternyata pool itu asik bgt... Gila, itu kyknya game yg fun abizzz... Tapi gw masi cupu bgt... Le, u mesti ngajarin gw... Huahaha... Tapi seru sich,liat si kemal ngeluarin jurusnya... Huahaha...

Gw mo main pool lagi... Tapi, pasti ga ada yg mo nemenin gw... Sapa ya yg mo nemenin gw????
Hm... Bingung...

Uda ngantuk nich... Bsk mo berenang n mugging lagi... Haizzz...

Ciao

2007-03-10T10:23:00.000+08:00

I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy but you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine

I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
[x2]

Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker

Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker

Addicted- Simple Plan

This song i dedicated to the girl there...

2007-03-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

Wad a happy day...

Tadi penya asik... Main bola!!! n gw ngebully singaporean classmate gw. Huahahaha. Suatu kebanggaan. Hohohoho...

Trus tadi dibagi hasil inggris gw. Gw dapet C5 padahal nilainya 59.2. Huhu... Tinggal 0.8 lagi... Hiks... Gapapa. Ntar midyear harus lebih bgs lagi. Huahaha...

Tadi sore ada cca... Gila,2 jam cuman ngayun tangan gw doankzzz. Skarang tgn gw uda pegel2. Tapi fun. Hwahahaha...

Bsk gw dapat piala gw balek... Huahaha... Gw kangen ama hiasan pingpongnya... Cute abizzz... Hehehe... Moga2 ntar pas national bisa dpt 1 lagi. Wakakaka. Tapi 1 grup ama SJI. Bakalan susah. Tapi harus tetep semangat...

Dah capek nulis blog ah... Saatnya maen game!!!

Ciao

2007-03-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

Haizzz...

Taid pagi ujian fisika tentang wave. Sucks!!! Susah bgt. Moga2 bisa pass. Huahahaha

Abis pulang,diajak tiara ke orchard. Gw nemenin dia nyari dress yg bakal dia pake hari kamis. Akhirnya stelah keliling wisma atria,takashimaya, n tangs selama 4 jam,akhirnya ketemu juga... Haizzz...Alhasil,skarang gw dah ngantuk berat...

Gw masi sering mikirin dia. Baik di sekolah maupun di hostel. Andaikan gw bisa ngeliat dia lagi. Gw bakalan senang. Di skul, konsentrasi buyar gara2 mikirin dia. Moga2 nilai gw ga jeblok gara2 dia.

Mesti ngerjain pr malay lagi...

Ciao

PS:je reclamer un pres de mon cote

2007-03-05T19:51:00.000+08:00

Happy day!!!

Ga tau kenapa hari ini gw hepi bgt. Huehehe...

Tadi ada 4 les pelajaran bio. Dasar si leow. Tetep aja ngebosenin. Mata gw sich ngeliat ke papan tulis. Tapi pikiran gw melayang ke seseorang selama 2 jam. Hohoho. Jadi ga ketiduran. Huahahaha

Prize presentation gw ternyata diundur ke hari jumat. Soalnya anak2 sec 3 lagi pada camp. Alhasil kantin jadi kosong melompong. So gw ga perlu queue lagi. Yey!!!

Kyknya hari ini bakal end dgn cepet. Haizz.. Mesti blajar physics lagi. Sambilan chatting aja ah. Abiz itu makan mie bareng bohay dech kyknya. Huahahaha...

Ciao

2007-03-04T10:42:00.000+08:00

Another tiring week...

Kemarin capek bgt... Ikutan interhostel competition di oldham hall. Gw sich maen futsal sich.
Menang lawan anglican house tapi kalah ama acs(i) tae. OMG. Kenapa gw ga kalah ama hostel lain aja... Haizzz... Tapi gw bangga soalnya gw nyetak gol. GOL BUNUH DIRI!!! Tambah parah lagi...

Akhirnya yg menang si HCIBS alias Hwachong. Untung bukan acsi. Gw dendam kesumat ama acs(i).

Nvrmind,yg penting kemarin gw enjoy bgt... Ada batch 12 dtg... Rhesa,Henkie,Ramses,Yoko... I miss y'all. Trus ngobrol bareng batch. Seru!!! Tapi gw masi bete ama batch. Dunno why...

Trus gw ngeliat yg captain's ball. Hahahas. Gw ngeliat anak mgs yg kecil2 namun bersemangat. Termasuk vi,leleng n vann. Hahahas. Lucu bgt ngeliat ekspresinya si vann waktu kalah.. Sayang gw ga bawa kamera... Wuih... Kpn2 harus diabadikan... Tapi nvrmind, kalian bukan ga ada skill. Tapi, kurang latihan n kesalahan gen kalian doankzzz. Taun depan nyoba lagi!!! Huahaha...

Trus habis itu kita ngerayain ultah putu. Kuenya ada pisang segala... Haizzz. Jadi mirip bgt ama "pip...". hahahas, habis ngerayain kita ke plasing. Beli hadiah rahardi. Drum stick keren ama 1 buku. Habis itu maen arcade. Stelah maen arcade,keliatannya smua org pada capek...

Tapi hari bahagia gw end dgn kejadian yg bikin gw kesal. Tapi nvrmind. Ntar hari bahagia gw jadi hari yg jelek. So let's forget it.

Moga2 tiap hari gw sefun ini. Huehehe. Trus w bahagia ngeliat somebody kemarin. Uda lama ga ketemu. Moga2 bisa ketemu lagi...

Time to go...

Ciao

2007-02-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

Nothing to say today...

But,i want to pray to God...

Thx for everything You give 2 me. Including my life,my parents, my brother n sister,my friends, and those who i love...

I also like 2 pray 2 You,God, that u will take care of a little girl who is struggling now... I hope that You will grant her a happy life... A life without sadness...

In Jesus name i pray,

Amin

2007-02-24T23:14:00.000+08:00

Another beautiful n sucks day...

I'm juz wanna ask... Why the hell am i so stupid? Please answer me!!!

The day started with table tennis training. It's useless though coz i will never can play anymore at the tournament... There is only one reason for it... I sucks!!!

In the afternoon, i went to oldham hall celebrating rahardi's b'day... Quite fun,but after that disaster come... Nvrmind.... I dun want to talk bout that...

Next, we went to Al' Azhar... A nice murtabak eating place... The murtabaks are good... Thx for rahardi for treating all of us... We owe u one...

Isn't it a beautiful day??? But why must a disaster come everytime there is a beautiful day??
Maybe it's my destiny to desperate everyday... Huahaha...

Time to go now

Ciao

2007-02-23T00:09:00.000+08:00

Uda lama ga ngeblog...
Akhirnya ada kesempatan juga...

Banyak kejadian yg terjadi 1 bulan terakhir ini...

1. Gw terpilih masuk school team...
Uda lawan Chung Cheng High... Kalah 2-3
Uda lawan Tanjong Katong Sec... Menang 5-0

Trus besok bakal lawan Manjusri Sec, hope bisa main bsk...

2. Gw uda ngelupain somebody...

Moga2 gw bisa tabah dalam menghadapi cobaan ini...

3. Signature Hunt!!!
Banyak kejadian aneh bin ajaib...
Bingung harus ceritain gimana...
Yg penting kita have fun di sono!!!

4. Tadi ultah edo!!!
Tapi ga seru ah...
Ga ada yg mo tapok si edo...
Batch 12,we need ur help...

5. Acen nraktir haagen daz...
Thanks acen...

6. Latian buat street soccer buat sabtu depan...
Haizzz....

and masi banyak lagi hal aneh yg terjadi...
Tapi dah lupa...

Jam di komputer sudah menunjukan 12.14 pm..
Saatnya tidur...

Ciao

2007-02-04T13:50:00.000+08:00

haizzz...

Uda lama ya ga update blog...
Akhirnya ada kesempatan juga...

Kemarin rayain ultah andika di hwachong sambilan main basket. Seru juga sich...
Tapi ga tau ultah w bakal dirayain dgn cara yg sama ga...

Hehehe....

Trus anak VH pada mo bikin film jomblo...

Versi ngawurnya...

Jadi bimo yg menjijikan,menjijaikan n menjajikan... Wadeva...
Tp w ga sedespo si Bimo... n ga setebal muka kyk dia...

Hmm...

W pingin nanya ke dunia...
What the hell in this world can help me to talk 2 her...

Smoga di dunia ini ada yg bisa menjawabnya...

...

2007-01-03T15:02:00.000+08:00

Finally back 2 Singapore....

First day of school is fun,but having 3 bio lesson with Leow is sucks...
Omg,how can i survive this year...

My juniors is not very social people. They like to join with other countries...

Kok w jadi ngomong inggris yah... Ganti bahasa dech...

Pokoknya balek ke singapura tuh ga menyenangkan
apalagi batch 12nya dah ilank...

Ditambah junior ga bisa diajak ngobrol...

Haizzz....

Anw, taun ini o level menanti
Harus berjuang keras biar masuk VJC
Hahahas...

Mau ngerjain pr maths w dulu ah...
Ciao...

2006-11-04T00:52:00.000+08:00

Haizzz...

A difficult day for me...

Untunglah komputer w akhirnya bisa jalan lagi. Uda takut kalo komputer w bakal rusak... W ga mau bikin komputer w rusak lagi..

Hari ini w habisin dgn tiduran dan baca Eragon. Eragon cool... Hahahas. Bsk ada rencana ke nus high main basket. Ga tau bakal jadi ato ga...

Hmmm...
Dah capek...
Mau tidur dulu...

Salam madesus,

Teki

2006-11-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm...
Another day has gone by...

Hari ini w n junior pada ke vivo city buat jalan2 n rayain ultah lia,ariena n lisa. Yah,as usual batch gw hepi sendiri ngelupain junior. W jadi agak nyesel ngajak mereka juga. Hahahas... Tapi that's fine. Yg penting mereka dah merasakan kehidupan yg dulu kita pernah rasakan...

One thing i learn 2day is that w harus menjadi seorang yg tegar walaupun anggapan org ttg u itu berbeda2. Mau org anggap w itu budak,temen,raja ato yg lain, w harus tegar n jadi diri w sendiri...

For vebi, tenang aja. Memang kadang2 kita harus curhat ke org utk luapin perasaan u. Cobalah nyari si melissa ato cindy utk curhat. W juga dulu rindu ama ortu ampe homesick... Hahas. Tapi dgn adanya temen 1 batch, w jadi merasa punya keluarga baru di sini...

Sekian dulu ar posting hari ini... W masi mual2 gara2 naik bus 196 bareng jeffry... Mabuk darat... Thanks 2 jeffry yg dah nemenin gw... Hahahas... Tidur dulu ar...

Salam madesus,

Teki

2006-10-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

Haizzz... Ujian malay akhirnya selesai... Capek kgk bosen iya... W ngapain ya tiap hari libur. Bsk ketemu junior ar di Ngee Ann. Dah rindu masa2 bridging... Moga2 junior kita punya guru yg baik kyk Mrs.Gan. Mrs. Gan,i miss you...

Ujian hari ini rada susah tapi no probs moga2 bisa dapet A1. Wakaka... Hopefully... Hari ini kerjaan w cuman main audition ama digimon trus main pro evo. Cara yg baik utk membunuh waktu. Sapa yg punya ide buat habisin waktu ???

Blajar main gitar dulu ar. Biar pas VS idol,w bisa ikutan perform sambil nyanyi. Hahahas...Berlanjut ke episode berikutnya....

Salam madesus,

Teki

2006-10-29T22:34:00.000+08:00

Akhirnya w ikutan ngeblog juga...

Yeah moga2 ga ada yg bakalan baca blog ini soalnya w ga bakalan ngeupdatenya tiap hari
Wakaka

Hebat ya gw
bikin blog walaupun besok O level

SO gud luk for madesus utk Os nya n all da bez for you...

Salam madesu...

Teki